Dear daddy,
It has been exactly ten years since you left us. Ten years since I and the whole family lost a father. It has been quite a long time during which I never stopped missing you, never stopped remembering you. But despite the years that have passed, I guess there will never be time long enough for us to forget you.
The daddy's girl that I am, I have always thought of you in all of my achievements. I dreamed and longed for your presence in the most important days of my life - my elementary, high school and college graduation ceremonies, my admission in UP and my membership in many organizations and a sorority, having great friends, campaigning for the Sanggunian Kabataan post and winning the Barangay Kagawad position - all those that I know you will be proud of.
I have always known how proud you are of me (even during my failures as a child) and I have always imagined your face, your encouragement and happiness during the happy days of my life. I regret that I will never be able to personally present to you my achievements that are your gifts and I hate the fact that they have outlived you.
For ten long years, I never got used to your absence. And now, more than ever, I badly want you back. I want to share with you the joys of my love, my emotions as I prepare for my wedding, and my worries for its fast approach. I will never know your reaction (to my decision to marry, my choice of partner and the wedding details) and I will never see you on our big day. And that is a mystery I will carry forever. Up until now, there are still some people who discourage me from marrying. Above anything else, I know and appreciate their good intentions. I know they love me; so daddy, bless and guide them. Bless and guide our decision, and for all the that matters, please give us your blessing.
You have made me, mommy and my siblings ten years stronger. And that's just one of the least of reasons why I will be forever grateful to you.
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22 May 2011
09 April 2011
Prudence and Dignity
These two magic words make me not need a motto. They make a summary of what a person I am, and they practically make my life easier. They reinforced what I already believed in and they made my values stronger. They're the number one reason why I will be forever grateful to our sorority, my recruiter and all my great teachers there.
Whenever I feel unsure about anything -- from approaching a person to making a lifetime commitment with him -- I consider prudence and dignity as both a life guide and criteria for my every decision.
Though part of the sorority's code is secrecy, I know that it will also think it prudent to share these wealth to everyone: Prudence is doing the right thing at the right time in the right place to the right person. While every person has his or her own concept of what is right, there should be a consideration of what is good for most people. But since righteousness is subjective, there will be objections and criticisms of whatever your decision is. That's where dignity comes in. Dignity is standing up for what you believe is right. No matter how bad people think about your decision, your job is to stand by it and prove that you made the right thing.
When I decided to study Journalism in UP, I faced many objections, encountered many of my fears and frustrations. Same as when I decided to get into a relationship at the start of college, when I decided to join the Sorority despite the many prejudices, when I decided to stay in a relationship with someone 12 years older than me and who has a lot of burden behind him. I believe I was prudent in all of those decisions. And I will forever stand by them.
Now, I decide to settle down, bind myself to a lifetime commitment and risk my happiness, my and my children's future to a man whose own future is uncertain. The only question now is dignity.
Whenever I feel unsure about anything -- from approaching a person to making a lifetime commitment with him -- I consider prudence and dignity as both a life guide and criteria for my every decision.
Though part of the sorority's code is secrecy, I know that it will also think it prudent to share these wealth to everyone: Prudence is doing the right thing at the right time in the right place to the right person. While every person has his or her own concept of what is right, there should be a consideration of what is good for most people. But since righteousness is subjective, there will be objections and criticisms of whatever your decision is. That's where dignity comes in. Dignity is standing up for what you believe is right. No matter how bad people think about your decision, your job is to stand by it and prove that you made the right thing.
When I decided to study Journalism in UP, I faced many objections, encountered many of my fears and frustrations. Same as when I decided to get into a relationship at the start of college, when I decided to join the Sorority despite the many prejudices, when I decided to stay in a relationship with someone 12 years older than me and who has a lot of burden behind him. I believe I was prudent in all of those decisions. And I will forever stand by them.
Now, I decide to settle down, bind myself to a lifetime commitment and risk my happiness, my and my children's future to a man whose own future is uncertain. The only question now is dignity.
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